Four Hundred and Eighteen

Dear Callumz,

Life is tricky. I know I've said all this before, but I'll say it again. I'll say it as many times as I need to for it to become as true as it needs to be.

Sometimes, we do things that we regret. I tend to do that far more often than I should. One of the problems with that, besides the obvious fact that we're bound to have made a massive mistake, is that people get hurt. Sometimes we hurt ourselves; sometimes we hurt the people that mean the most to us. And when we do, we can just hope and wish and pray that they won't harbor negative feelings toward us or our actions- I know I do.

I made a mistake last year- what has to have been the biggest of my life. I never intended it to come back around the way it has, but of course it did. And so I want to say, as I will continue to do as often as needed- I'm sorry.

I also happen to know that my sheer idiocy is not the only thing upsetting you. I just want to tell you, properly tell you, that you mean more to me than words could ever say. I want you to know that no matter what anyone says, does, thinks- I will always love you. And you know what people do when they love each other?

They look out for each other. They tell each other every single day how much they love each other. They keep no secrets and they listen. They listen to everything they have to say, and they always remain by the other person's side, just as I will do for you.

Remember that whenever you doubt- its truer than anything else I've ever felt before.

Love always,
Kaiteh.

PS- I know you hate my taste in music; it's just not your thing at all. That's fine. But I think that right now, this song just sums everything up. For me, anyway- I don't know about you. I've done this using a little trick from you, too- as well as being a pretty face; you're useful too. I think I want to keep you around...

-Kaiteh.